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joey.
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melswee.
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weelyn.
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Saturday, July 15, 2006

This should be the last entry that I'm going to post.

I don't get it with you. Honestly, you're making me feel stupid to actually pity and follow you. I even find that all the letters you wrote to me are now so meaningless. Utterly. Especially when I think about the letters and think about now. Its really... its pathetic.

I regretted going back with you, really. My mom acutally even told me not to and yet, I stupidly did. If I didn't I'll probably be happier. Sure, the holidays we shared woes and everything together. Specially when my grandmother passed on. But then, now I come to think about it, everything leads to nowhere.

I'm never going to pity, sympathise or even think that you're pitifuly if you're left alone, sad or whatsoever. You know I really don't want to pick a fight. After the concert on 7July, I thought things was going to be fine. I wasn't expecting much like going back to old times, but didn't expect things to be worse? And you know what, its true that my mother doesn't like you. Its like so true.

You can say I'm over protective, I'm to sensitive. But sad to say, this is me. I can't change that, and if I do change it because of you. Its not me. Why should I do all the changing up while you are just sitting there pinpointing? So what you are so well known? So what if you're popular. Sometimes I just can't stand your voice either. Sometimes, I just think it disgusts me.

I thought that offering a ride you to somewhere would acutally help. And yet, what you gave me back was a disgusted face. Like what's with that? If you don't need a ride, just say, no thanks. Or at least its alright. Because so happens that God made eyes for me to see your expressions. Which is just rude. So what now? So now its my fault for giving you the offer?

I really don't get it with you. Really. One thing can really help. Stop making my life a living hell already. I hope we won't patch up soon. Cause I really don't want to. Cause I think you just don't take things seriously. It seems to me like the letters you wrote is like for being grateful, like for the fun of writting.

Whatever la. Cause you're just treating me like a spare friend. When you have friends, you leave me out. When you don't, you come to me.

8:15 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

I say nat's nick not too long. I realised that David's going to teach in OLPS instead of our parish. And Jerry might not be leaving. Its a might which also means that its not confirm that he is either staying or leaving. Like nat said, its for the better. The only thing I cannot stand which is, they shouldn't have left without a word! It's so sad.

I seem to be into football now. Too bad Brazil and England are already out. I'm left with Germany to support. Football is nice, you all should watch it. It distracts me from everything. Things I don't want to think about.

I'm missing everything. I'm missing bridge. Although I just played it like... yesterday. But its fun. Its really fun. Amy and clara should have gone! Cause Clara's fengshui was always worst than mine! Its because of her that's why my fengshui was so bad. Pff.

A week more till my birthday.

7:00 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Man.. David and Jerry resigned. Its so sad! They are actually one of the reasons that actually makes me want to go for cathetism! Other reasons like mother forcing and another is that I have to write prayers. No prayer, no starting of lesson.

I'm going to miss them saying that my prayers are good. I'm going to miss David's tallness. I'm going to miss Jerry's lameless. I'll miss Jerry's baldness. I'll miss David funniness! I'm going to miss them like crazy. They are like the only ones that actually keeps our class alive. For now, its Francis that keeps us alive. Giant sigh. But of course it would be better if they sorted out their personal problems first then continue teaching us. BUT. How can they just leave without a word? They should have told us, not through Francis. But if they actually did, not only emotional Natalie would cry. I bet I would too. It's like I know them for a year, they even said that they would be our teachers till we get confirmed. BUT... I'm so sad. All I could see now is to see them during mass. RAH!

We had lunch at Shaw House. Japanese food. I spilled the bottle of soya sauce by accident. Kind of embarrassing.

Today we played bridge again. This time round, luck wasn't at MY side. No one dared to partner me. They were too scared to lose. Not even one game I won. NOT AT ALL. Today my fengshui not good. So many sad things happening lately.

I don't want to sit in front of Joey during band, she just love to blast! Cause she is the one and only Tenor Sax in the senior band. - This is random.

10:40 PM

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Yesterday was fun. Lessons were boring. We even had a mass. Sorry for not showing respect but its was really boring. After school was fun. Joey came to my house, sad to say we couldn't go to CCPS for their open house cause we had to go for the piano festival.

I shared so much to Joey. I even help Joey style her hair. Which was really really nice. XD. It was fun but we were really tired when we got there. During the concert, Joey and I were sleeping. From the back view looked like couples sleeping together. So Natasha Ning candid that picture. - she might use it to blackmail us one day.

I'm telling you, even single piece I listened to yesterday, I only caught the first 5 minutes of the piece and slept.- except after the interval. Cause its way too long. But the pianist was really good. After the interval I almost slept throughout.

I think Joey and I are step closer. That's good. :))

My birthday is coming. I don't seem very anxious about it. High school musical was nice.

6:55 PM

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Three days have past. School is boring. The only lessons which I actually enjoy and find that its actually fun being in is history. Not that I like the subject or anything, just that I think that... the teacher is nice. In other words, lame.

I think I'm falling in love with geeks. Hahas. I'm crazy recently, I realise sometimes whenever I talk, I make no sense. I realise many things. Maybe its because of the camp. Man. I also got to know I'm emtionally disable.

Today is actually the worst day. I didn't plan to even enjoy it. But there's is this new subject, Growing Years, I thought it was funny and maybe interesting? Hahas. It's more about relationships and everything. And we had to do the survey. Man, the survey sucked badly. To me, it's full of shit.

I have to finish up my literature project, which I haven't even started, find 6articles for current affairs journal and lastly, find 30words in story books, magazines or newspapers.

Last minute work!

I find that things really changed alot between us. I find that its like over between us. I feel so sad. You're not there for me like before. You changed, or maybe I changed. I don't know, everything seems so different. It's like as if we're not even friends. I don't know. Things are very different. I kind of regret writting an essay on you for my exam. Cause I just realise, you don't mean so much to me after all this. Its so sad.